i've just been chatting to an old friend online.. we've been friends since we were kids in schools, probably about 6 or 7. It just strikes me as odd seeing as that when we became teenagers we treated each other like shit: i mean we were AWFUL to each other.... and yet there we were:- we couldn't type quick enough!!! Then you have the alternative: Friends i've made at an age when i know how to treat my fellow man, and we've become as thick as thieves overnight: yet, a year or two down the line, we've fallen off each others respective radars.
I went through a very bad patch of mourning my past and past friends and aquintences when i was in my early twenties: it's not a condition i'm *Entirely* over now, but i'm a lot better: whats gone cannot be replaced VS. those that forget the past are doomed to repeat it. A number of "lost souls" VS. those who i may only see a few times a year but with whom the bond remains as it was, unaffected by time apart.
"Where are you going with this?"
i hear you say ( i hear myself say!!) i dunno - i do miss some of the people that i've lost contact with and the conditions under which we made friends cannot be replicated.
The other issue is that when i do bump into these people the hugs and smiles are free flowing and we launch into a full-scale reminisce about our time together. Drinks are consumed and we part ways but not before we check the mobile numbers we have for each other and swear to whatever deity may be listening that we wont allow for such a length of time to pass again b4 we get in touch.... an we all know how that scenario ends, right???
When you consider i'm such a firm believer in fate, it doesn't make much sense does it??? These people have been removed from my horizon for a reason. And how many times can you drag up the past as a conversation point??? Recounting a flat party back in '99 when so-&-so projectile vomited across the communal kitchen can only gonna raises laughes on *SO* many ocasions.
So, as with contemporary ideology on spirits, i have to aknowledge their presence and let them go.....
To all of you that bought a smile to my face in university,
To those with whom i've abused the company internal email facility,
To those who provided morale support during a cig break,
To those with who i had an after-hours drink with,
To anyone that joined me in taking the piss and making our in-jokes
See ya next lifetime......
Current Music: JiIl Scott: Slowly Surely (Theo Parrish remix)